• happy birthday baby II

    well, it’s been one year, and only a few posts since josh’s last birthday. 28, today. wow, what an old man! me being 29, only since june, he still had the nerve to call me old this morning! somethings never change, like his sense of humor. for that i am very grateful. grateful also for his smile and his laugh. his blue eyes and sandy blonde hair. his height. his work ethic. his creativity. his leadership. his desire to do what’s right and follow the Lord. his style. his grace, yes, his grace. he’s very suave at times. his desire to make me laugh, even when i am being a…

  • two years

    we have been trying to get pregnant for two years. yes, that’s half of our married life. we’ve both always wanted to be parents. for me i think that desire started at birth. for josh it took a little longer. i would have started trying to conceive shortly after we were married. for josh, well, it took a little longer. once we were finally ready to “try”, we were so excited, and a little scared. those of you who have been down that road, i am sure know exactly where i am coming from. we were scared because of all the questions. “yes, we’re ready to be parents, but are…

  • "but, i don't want to be a middle-class Christian…"

    i couldn’t get to sleep last night. my mind was racing with images of my life and what it stands for. “is it enough”, i thought? “Jesus gave His life. am i giving enough in return?” yes, i serve. yes, i tithe. yes, i pray. yes, i share my faith. but, is that enough? am i not supposed to give my life too? i was trying to come up with people i could run to for solace. there’s got to be someone else, at least one other person i know who wants to be sold out for the Lord. images of all my friends and family flashed through my mind.…