• a slight emotional breakdown

    the more bonded i become to our children, the more i grieve their past. have i written about this before?? oh well, i am sure it won’t be the last time. i am sure actually, that it will be an issue i deal with for the rest of, well, forever. thursday night after i put the kids to bed(josh was at Bible study. not sure why it matters to write that, but it paints the picture, me being alone in the house with three sleepy babies.) and i started to think about what it might be like to meet their mom someday. to share pictures with her of them growing…

  • "It's a ban"

    it’s a what? yeah, we’re trying to figure it out too. ban is something our three and a half year old wilbur came up with. it’s been a part of his vocabulary for a few months now. here’s what we know so far. a ban can be anything. i can be a ban. what we eat for snack before bed can be a ban. putting on shoes can be a ban. he has a ban dance, though we’ve never actually seen it before. he also has a ban show, which we’ve also never seen. and now he has a ban follower. our two year old orville started saying ban today.…

  • it's official!

    we are a forever family!(we have been in our hearts since the day we met, but now it is government declared!) last monday we went to court and the judge granted our adoption petitions! what an amazing and emotionally overwhelming experience! it was such a beautiful time of sharing with our family and friends, and the court, what it means to us to be parents to our children. we still in so many ways can’t believe how God’s plan for our lives has played out. and even when i replay the timeline in my head, i am still in awe. oh, adoption. the joy! i wish everyone could experience it…