• paid in full

    we paid our final van payment today.  i was told the title will come in the mail in about two weeks.  feels so strange to make a final payment on something that is a pretty big thing in our lives.  and to know that now we own it.  it is our van. we started paying for our van five years ago, when we “bought” it.  we were starting a family.  2 people to 5 people overnight.  we needed something suitable for carting around a family.  a van would do.  and i was quite proud to get a mini-van.  that meant i was becoming a mama.  and that, i really, really…

  • a new form of provision

    worried.  scared.  discouraged. the way people would describe how i must be feeling during our unemployment. relieved.  happy.  weight lifted from your shoulders.  secure. the way people currently describe how i must be feeling now that josh is once again employed. content.  provided for.  at peace.  thankful.  safe.  trusting.  excited. the way i would describe how i felt during our unemployment.  and, the way i would describe how i am feeling in this time of our new employment. josh started a new job march 28th. before josh lost his job last february, God provided.  when josh lost his job last february, God provided.  the new job, is quite simply, a…

  • too many questions?

    i often finding myself telling our children to stop asking me questions.  “mommy’s answered too many and she needs a question break!”, i’ll say.  and in their silence i feel guilty.  and i think i shouldn’t ask them to stop.  i am their mom.  i want them to get their answers from me.  not everyone can be trusted to answer their questions appropriately.  and, i want to be a good parent.  i desperately want that. thinking about God being the ultimate parent, i wondered if He’d ever say to me, “stop asking questions kirsten!  I’ve answered too many, and I need a break!”  my first thought was “no, He’d never…

  • salvation at an early age

    i asked Jesus to be my Savior when i was 5.  when i hear people share of their redemption at an older age, i feel a bit of jealousy.  my story doesn’t seem as special or important, having known Jesus since i was so young. i often wonder what that would feel like, having not a clue about Him, and learning about Him one day.  it would be amazing.  this man, who came so many years ago, not knowing Him for so long and then finally, salvation! i often wonder what it would be like to have been down a really rocky path of my own choosing, to come to…

  • passing judgment

    i’ve noticed it lately, rolling around facebook.  it’s a new poll question ~ “do you think people on welfare should have mandatory drug tests?”  it appears as though most people answer overwhelmingly “yes”. i am wondering how that ‘yes’ is determined.  everyone on welfare should be tested?  everyone?  how would we judge that?  are there certain behaviors we’d look for in an individual?  would it be based on where they live?  how they live?  if they’re single or married or divorced?  if they have children?  and if so, how many?  would they be judged as needing a drug test based on the color of their skin?  or their level of…