we paid our final van payment today. i was told the title will come in the mail in about two weeks. feels so strange to make a final payment on something that is a pretty big thing in our lives. and to know that now we own it. it is our van.
we started paying for our van five years ago, when we “bought” it. we were starting a family. 2 people to 5 people overnight. we needed something suitable for carting around a family. a van would do. and i was quite proud to get a mini-van. that meant i was becoming a mama. and that, i really, really wanted to do.
i am so glad we purchased this van. it has been perfect for our family. that doesn’t mean there haven’t been days when i would dream of getting a newer van. a bigger van. a van with more features, like a dvd player. when josh lost his job, it was quite obvious that the Lord intended for us to keep our van. and i became quite, actually very, content with that.
during our year plus of unemployment, we never missed a van payment. never even made any late. and when we realized the final payment was coming, we were thrilled. the Lord’s provision in this way was and is amazing.
and now, that money is free. it doesn’t go to the van anymore. we now have a big chunk of money to set aside every month, for what we’re not yet sure. but we’ve never had a time in our marriage where we could set that much money aside. we’ll be seeking wisdom from Him in this.
the first thought that entered my mind as i left the bank was “paid in full, that’s what Jesus did for me!” and i thanked Him for giving me such a clear and simple picture of His sacrifice at this time of year.
we’re heading into good friday. a day that’s often viewed in a very solemn way. i remember as a child, sometimes sitting in my room during the hours that Jesus hung on the cross. it seemed as if it were always dark outside, cloudy, on the verge of a storm. i remember being sad. i remember wishing Jesus didn’t have to experience death the way He did, for me.
i still feel that way. but, as an adult, i understand that the moment of His death was shared with the moment He declared victory. all of my sin debt, paid in full. all of yours. all of everyone’s. paid. in full. in one moment of time. thank you Lord!
“when you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your flesh,
God made you alive with Christ.
He forgave us all our sins, having canceled the charge of our legal indebtedness,
which stood against us and condemned us; He has taken it away, nailing it to the cross.”
“when He had received the drink, Jesus said, “it is finished.”
with that, He bowed His head and gave up His spirit.”
“on this mountain He will destroy the shroud that enfolds all peoples,
the sheet that covers all nations; He will swallow up death forever.”
“for this perishable body must put on the imperishable, and this mortal body must put on immortality. when the perishable puts on the imperishable, and the mortal puts on immortality,
then shall come to pass the saying that is written:
“Death is swallowed up in victory.”
1 corinthians 15:53~54