• a big house

    this is selfish.  this is materialistic.  this is worldly.  i want to admit all of that right from the start.  so now that i have, here it is… i want a big house. i want one with a huge foyer, with a huge winding staircase, that goes up to the third floor.  and when you go all the way up to the third floor, you can look down, over the railing, and see into the foyer. i want a double staircase, a set of stairs in the foyer and one that leads from the kitchen to the upstairs. i want a big kitchen.  a huge one actually.  one where we…

  • there is joy in our home

    “i felt it when i first walked in your home, joy,” he said.  my uncle mike came to visit today.  he’s been in town for awhile and is heading out soon.  he stopped by this afternoon to hang out with our family. i loved having a grown~up conversation with him.  my whole life, he’s been an adult.  and now i am his peer. he’s amazing, this uncle of mine. he’s wise.  he’s deep.  he’s sincere.  he’s flawed, and he admits it.  he’s been redeemed, and he’s grateful.  he speaks the truth, completely bathed in love.  he seeks the Lord.  he follows the Lord.  he trusts the Lord with all his…

  • grandparents

    i’m packing up my boys for a night with grammy and gramps.  the boys are so excited.  grammy is so excited.  i’m sure gramps is too, but i haven’t talked to him about it. as i’m placing their clean clothes for tomorrow in their ‘traveling to grandma’s house’ bags, purchased by grammy of course, i’m overcome with emotion.  my eyes tear up.  my heart overflows with gratitude.  i’m struck with the thought that this is how it would be if i could plan it.  i’m struck by the fact that this is really how it is. my children have a grammy and a gramps who love them so much.  who…