• she wanted a sister

    josh and i have always said we didn’t want our story to end with our infertility and adoption.  we wanted the story to continue after our kiddos came home. we also have continued to tell the Lord we know our lives aren’t ours, but that they belong to Him.  we want Him to use them how He sees fit.  we want Him to break our hearts for what breaks His heart. we have a daughter who has always wanted a sister.  always.  she’s casually mentioned it for years now.  i’ve always told her to pray about it,  to ask the Lord to make mommy’s body be able to have a…

  • because Jesus really is the answer

    friday was horrifying.  it happened.  yet, it’s unimaginable. i’m behind on my Christmas decorating.  it took us two and a half weeks to get the tree fully ornamented.  i can’t find our stockings.  i just put up the nativity saturday night. i turned on the news right before i went down to the basement to gather my garland and nativity set.  people say to turn off the news.  us tuning in sensationalizes what happened.  it’ll make other people want to do the same thing.  well, the media will report it whether we watch it or not.  it’s what they do. i left the news on.  i could hear the stories,…

  • no advent last night

    we didn’t do advent last night. we live real here.  and josh and i had a real argument.  in the kitchen.  and two kiddos were in the dining room making comics and the other kiddo was on the couch. it started during dinner, when i started reading for advent.  i felt like i was the only one in, the only one focusing.  i asked every one to join me, to try to pay attention to the words.  they’re important, what we’re doing is important. i mix up my words sometimes, combining the first few letters of one word with the last few letters of the next word.  or vice versa. …

  • the beginning of advent

    advent |ˈadˌvent| noun [in sing. ] the arrival of a notable person, thing, or event we started our advent readings tonight.  stopping to take a closer look at the notable arrival of the Christ child.  as the house begins to glow with Christmas lights, our jesse tree sits in a corner of our dining room, waiting to be adorned.  last year we started using ann voskamp’s jesse tree advent devotional. i forgot it starts november 29th so we had three readings tonight.  i forgot how much i love it.  i forgot how much it sweeps me into the story of our Savior’s birth. of how He came.  of why He…