open hands

i want to live with open hands.

freely open hands.

hands open, palms up, waiting to be filled by God, unfilled by me.

sara has a song about this, open my hands.  this line is in the song.

“i am nodding my head an emphatic yes to all that You have for me”.

this has been a theme for me with this second adoption.  i want to walk through it with open hands.  open to all God has for me.  open to all He has for my family.

part of that is being willing to consider more than one child.  part of that is being open to any age under our youngest now.  that means we could bring in a 7 year old.  or an infant.  or anything in between.  or any two in between i should say.  part of that is being willing to make changes in the set-up of our home.

our smallest bedroom is currently our office.  our plan has been to get it ready for one child.  amelia would move into that room should we bring home two children.  she’d stay put in her current room if we bring home one child.  we found out last night that if we’re willing to take two children, the bedroom for the two children needs to be completely ready for our home study.  that means amelia moves no matter what.

it’s not a big deal.  it’s really not.  it’s just a change of plans.  a change of my plans.

amelia and i chatted about it this afternoon.  i told her we have two options:

1.  she can stay in her room and we prepare the office and tell the agency we can take one child.

2.  we can prepare the office for her and continue to be open to two children.

she said, excitedly, “so i’m moving?  boys, i’m moving!”

her hands are open.  completely open.

i walked out of her room and started to sing.

“i am nodding my head an emphatic yes to all that You have for me”

the day we met our children-seven years ago today

i think every year i’ll just repost what i wrote the day after our first meeting.  i keep searching for something meaningful and clever to say, but it’s not coming.  well, maybe this will be meaningful.

7 years ago we met for the first time, today it seems as if they’ve always been here, always been a part of our lives.  7 years ago, i had never heard their voices.  right now, they are playing outside and i can hear their giggles and their arguing.  the past 7 years have changed us all very much.  7 years ago today, the focus was very much on me, on me becoming a mom.  today, the focus is very much on them.  on what they need now and to become healthy, Christ-following adults.  7 years ago today, the kiddos were meeting us just as friends.  they had no idea we were going to be a part of their lives forever.

this morning, as i was doing amelia’s hair, i asked if anyone had any idea what happened 7 years ago today.  they had some goofy guesses.  when i told them it’s the day we met, wilbur yelled from the bathroom as he was brushing his teeth, “awe, it’s our anniversary!”  yeah buddy, it is.  it’s one of them.  our family has many.

7 years.  the day we met.

that day.

Easter Sunday this year.