• court

    it’s been a long time, 11 years maybe, since i’ve been to juvenile court.  being an ongoing caseworker for a children’s services agency in a neighboring county, going to court was a regular part of my job.  i was an agency representative, telling the court the status of my cases.  letting them know if the parents or guardians of children in foster care were complying with their case plan objectives.  their case plan provided them with services to ensure their children could safely return to their care.  services could include parenting classes, alcohol/drug treatment or counseling, anger management if domestic violence was an issue, secure stable and safe housing, secure…

  • overwhelmed

    this morning was hard.  the now 17 month old was up too early, shortly followed by his 5 year old brother.  and i could not stop thinking about all that is on our plate right now.  we need to move into a larger home, but we still have to finish up some projects in our current home.  and we need to sell it.  well, first we need to list it.  we need to secure loan money.  we need a bigger van.  in a month possibly.  we are going to a wedding in maine in june and there is talk about taking a vacation immediately following.  along with finding a new…

  • we need YOUR help!

    it’s hard for me to ask for help.  it’s hard for me to admit i need help.  many of you have asked how you can help, many of you have been helping.  over the past week or so, i realized the exact kind of help we need. we need a 12 passenger van. we need a larger home. right now, the kids and i all fit in the van.  we take the van and josh’s car when we all need to go somewhere together.  only, we aren’t really going together, we just end up at the same place.  this is okay for now, except my van isn’t expected to make…

  • on mother’s day

    i love this quote so much.  i’m actually a bit jealous, i wish i would have come up with it on my own.  it so clearly sums up being an adoptive and foster mom. i am a mom.  but there’s a big difference between being a mom to your own children and a mom to children who came from another woman, another mom.  so often people want to argue this, “but you are their mom!”  i am an adoptive mom and i am a foster mom.  i am not a biological mom.  i am not a birth mom. me being “mom” to any of our 6 kiddos, doesn’t change that. …

  • on one month

    four weeks ago today we became a family of 8.  four weeks.  it’s hard to believe. i still feel like i am living the life of someone else. i’m still very, very, very tired.  but, the exhaustion i felt in the very beginning is gone. the falling limp on the floor at any sign of discipline has faded.  eye contact is improving.  a certain little girl still wants to act like a baby sometimes, but these days it’s more for play than love and affection.  and there’s no more baby head banging.  well, except for the attempt today when he was pulling a sharpie off of my desk and i…