• living with open hands in foster care land

    foster care is temporary.  it was never meant to be a permanent solution for children in need of a loving and safe place to live. a child in foster care is either reunified with their birth family, placed with a relative who is given legal guardianship, adopted, or aged out of the system.  the fostering part doesn’t last forever. we knew going into this current situation that is was foster only.  could it turn into an adoption situation?  any case can, but none of them start that way.  it takes time to get there and we are very much in the taking time process.  we knew that we’d have to…

  • saying good-bye to my mini-van

    we’d been praying for a new van for months.  even before we knew we were bringing in three, possibly four more children, we were praying for a new van.  a new, big van. every morning i’d say to the Lord, “we need a new van.  i know You know that.  i trust that You already know what van we’ll get, where it is, when it will come to us.  we are trusting You to provide because we believe that You will.” He did bring us a new van last week so our last day with my van was last thursday.  i knew i’d be sad to let it go.  i…

  • strong enough

    this is a little much. a little overwhelming. 3 kids + 3 more kids + a newborn. my mind can start to wander. i can start to fear. i was sitting on the beach earlier. the wind was stronger than it had been since we arrived Sunday. the waves were bigger. i was thinking i’m not strong enough to do this. i felt God was saying, “do you hear and feel the wind? do you hear and see the waves? do you not know how strong I am? I am showing you right now.”  

  • so i turned 38

    yesterday was my birthday. i turned 38. the past few days have been a whirlwind of craziness and by the grace of God we made it through. and i woke up yesterday morning at the beach. and i had breakfast on the upper deck with my girl. and this cute guy had an awesome sleep!  till 10am! and we left for a day out. we went to see how to train your dragon 2. our cute little guy’s hand is always in that same spot.  always. we did a little window shopping after the movie and then had a late lunch/early dinner at red robin. everybody with their food.  well,…

  • chicken daddy

    i’m not quite sure when my desire to have children with you started.  i think before i met you, and your mom was trying to get us together, she told me you wanted to get married and have a family someday.  i wanted that too. and when we were working in the jr. high dept. at church, you always had so much fun goofing around with the kids.  i knew you’d be a fun dad. and when you’d trek along for my babysitting excursions, you were so helpful and fun and the kids loved you. and then we got married and started planning for a family. we were told we…