worried. scared. discouraged.
the way people would describe how i must be feeling during our unemployment.
relieved. happy. weight lifted from your shoulders. secure.
the way people currently describe how i must be feeling now that josh is once again employed.
content. provided for. at peace. thankful. safe. trusting. excited.
the way i would describe how i felt during our unemployment. and, the way i would describe how i am feeling in this time of our new employment.
josh started a new job march 28th.
before josh lost his job last february, God provided. when josh lost his job last february, God provided. the new job, is quite simply, a new form of God’s provision.
His provision doesn’t always look the way we think it will, the way we think it should. we knew without a doubt He would provide during unemployment. and if we questioned that, what would that say about our faith? what would that say about our belief in the Word?
i couldn’t be worried:
i’ve shared luke 12 with you here before. matthew 6 says pretty much the same thing. in vs. 25~34, the word worry is used six times. “do not worry about your life…” “can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?” “and why do you worry about clothes?” “so do not worry saying, ‘what shall we eat?’ or ‘what shall we drink?’ or ‘what shall we wear?’” “therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.”
i couldn’t be scared:
“for God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”
~2 timothy 1:7
“do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are Mine!”
i couldn’t be discouraged:
“the LORD Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”~deuteronomy 31:8
“have i not commanded you? be strong and courageous. do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”~joshua 1:9
i think the one word that has eaten at me the most is “secure”. the idea that i must feel “secure” now that josh has a job. as if i couldn’t feel “secure” without that one thing. as if a job could/would/should provide my security. but it doesn’t. and it can’t. and it won’t. if i try to find my security in anything, anyone, other than Jesus, i will never be secure. josh’s job could be taken tomorrow. the salary could be taken tomorrow. the salary could diminish. the only thing that’s sure and secure is my Savior.
“let the beloved of the LORD rest secure in Him, for He shields Him all day long, and the one the LORD loves rests between His shoulders.”~deuteronomy 33:12
“it is God who arms me with strength and keeps my way secure.”~2 samuel 22:33
“you will be secure, because there is hope; you will look about you and take your rest in safety.”~job 11:18
“LORD, you alone are my portion and my cup; you make my lot secure.”~psalm 16:5
“we have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure.”~hebrews 6:19