• year 17

    “we’d like you to meet our oldest son someday,” they said. “ok,” i replied. i barely knew them.  and i had no idea who he was. two years passed. and then we met, this son of theirs and i. he came to volunteer at a church jr. high event that i was leading.  and he was silly and goofy and obnoxious and cute and also a little mysterious.  and the kids loved him.  and he made me smile.  and he made me laugh.  but, he was seeing someone. i had just graduated from college.  i was looking for a full~time job.  i was contemplating moving to connecticut with my sister.…

  • i’ve been here before

    monday august 8th josh found out he won’t have a job after the end of this year.  the bank where he works has been acquired by another bank and the new bank isn’t keeping his position. i’ve been here before. i’ve been here four times. in 2002, right after we celebrated our first wedding anniversary and bought our first home, josh lost his job. in 2006, right before our oldest three kiddos came to us, josh lost his job. in 2010-house, three kids, vehicles, dog-pretty comfy life, josh lost his job. i’ve been here before and here i go again. in 2016-house, vehicles, cancer recovery, nine kids-josh is losing his…

  • year 14

    14 years ago today we were married. 14 years and seven children later, we’re still here. still finding one another in the midst of the chaos and the noise. this has probably been our most difficult year. we’ve been pulled and stretched in ways we never expected. our faith has been challenged. our hearts have grown faint. our marriage has been tested. our integrity has been questioned. we’ve lost each other. we’ve found each other. we’ve laughed. we’ve cried. we’ve been great teammates. we’ve managed things on our own. we’ve yelled. we’ve whispered. we’ve been exhausted and overwhelmed. we’ve been amazed and full of joy. we still find each other…

  • 13 years

    today is our 13th wedding anniversary.  normally, we’d have made plans to escape for a night or two, but this year things are very different.  we currently have seven children.  c.r.a.z.y. i turned on our wedding video this afternoon.  the three and a half year old who is living under our roof said, “i’m so happy.  i’m gonna get a josh when i get married, like you!”  be still my heart. the prayers offered on our behalf, the day we got married, are full of things that have actually happened over the past 13 years.  i can’t believe where we are.  i never would have imagined any of this the…

  • chicken daddy

    i’m not quite sure when my desire to have children with you started.  i think before i met you, and your mom was trying to get us together, she told me you wanted to get married and have a family someday.  i wanted that too. and when we were working in the jr. high dept. at church, you always had so much fun goofing around with the kids.  i knew you’d be a fun dad. and when you’d trek along for my babysitting excursions, you were so helpful and fun and the kids loved you. and then we got married and started planning for a family. we were told we…