• the truth about how it is over here

    i invited women from our church over to our home tonight. women who are foster and/or adoptive moms. i invited them over because i’ve been doing this thing for a few years now and i’ve learned quite a bit. and i felt the Lord was leading me to get these ladies together so we could start to connect and support and encourage one another. company at 8:45pm means littles in bed at 8:00pm. right before 7:00pm things were getting a little out of control. some of it typical kid stuff, some of it because all of our kids are working through their trauma. at around 7:05pm i started to fall…

  • start writing

    lots of stories to tell. lots of thoughts to share. people tell me i should write things down. my response is always the same-i don’t have time. i came to the conclusion that when God had planned for me to write, He’d let me know. i was on a retreat last weekend and He gave me a list of things to write about. apparently it’s time. so i’ve spent some time updating my site during the day while my toddlers are watching a show, when i spill a bag of chips on the counter and the computer, during basketball practice for my six year old, or after all of the…

  • 40 things i’ve learned on my journey to 40

      11:34pm, june 22, 2016. i’m listening to sara groves’ floodplain. i’m texting my friend shelly. “are you trying to cry?” she asks. “i don’t know what i’m trying to do,” i respond. “take it all in i guess-the happy and the sad.”  i’m turning 40 in a matter of moments. i was born june 23, 1976. and now here it is.  yesterday i turned 40.  the women in the above photo, my mom and my sister, are not a part of my life. they haven’t been for a few years now. and it’s sad. 40 doesn’t look or feel like i thought it would. and i have learned a…

  • merry Christmas 2013

    we hope you and yours had a wonderful Christmas eve and day celebration! if you’ve wandered here to see the videos we mentioned in our Christmas letter, you can find them up above when you click on the videos link. if you are here because you check in every once in a while only to find out i haven’t updated recently, i’m glad you’re here for this update! Christmas took on a whole new meaning for our family this year as God has brought margee into our lives. the video about margee, up in the video link, josh and i first saw in august. it broke our hearts and we…

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  • the day we met our children-seven years ago today

    i think every year i’ll just repost what i wrote the day after our first meeting.  i keep searching for something meaningful and clever to say, but it’s not coming.  well, maybe this will be meaningful. 7 years ago we met for the first time, today it seems as if they’ve always been here, always been a part of our lives.  7 years ago, i had never heard their voices.  right now, they are playing outside and i can hear their giggles and their arguing.  the past 7 years have changed us all very much.  7 years ago today, the focus was very much on me, on me becoming a…