• we need YOUR help!

    it’s hard for me to ask for help.  it’s hard for me to admit i need help.  many of you have asked how you can help, many of you have been helping.  over the past week or so, i realized the exact kind of help we need. we need a 12 passenger van. we need a larger home. right now, the kids and i all fit in the van.  we take the van and josh’s car when we all need to go somewhere together.  only, we aren’t really going together, we just end up at the same place.  this is okay for now, except my van isn’t expected to make…

  • remembering

    it’s all a little foggy, the details of that day.  it was 7 years ago today.  that explains some of the lack of memory of the day’s events.  but it was also a whirlwind of a day.  an ‘i can’t believe this is happening’ kind of day. they had been with us for 9 1/2 months.  ironic?  they felt like ours from the first moment we heard about them.  but this day, they would legally become ours.  our adoption would be finalized.  we would officially be a family. my sweet friend jennifer always remembers this day, and she always lets me know it was a special day for she and…

  • one down, two to go

    we had our first home study visit tonight.  our first of three.  and it was good. we were finishing dinner when she, the adoption assessor, arrived.  i invited her to join us at the table.  she did.  we were mostly finished so in just a few minutes, the kids were asking to be dismissed and we adults settled in for a long question and answer session. lots of questions. how did you meet? what’s your relationship like? what are your strengths as a couple? what are some of your common interests? how do you handle conflict? what roles do you each play in your relationship? what are some difficulties you’ve…

  • for you

    whoever you are. wherever you are. this summer’s for you. we’re preparing our home, preparing our hearts, trying to wrap our minds around(which we can’t) your arrival. no lazy summer days here. we’re painting, cleaning, organizing, rearranging. because we’re getting ready for you. we’re waiting for you. our home is changing. our lives are changing. our five is getting ready to grow into we don’t know how many. but it will grow because of you. and we’re open. and we’re excited. and we’re uncertain. and we’re hopeful. and we’re trusting. trusting in the One who has a great plan for us all. and it’s all for Him. and it’s all…

  • open hands

    i want to live with open hands. freely open hands. hands open, palms up, waiting to be filled by God, unfilled by me. sara has a song about this, open my hands.  this line is in the song. “i am nodding my head an emphatic yes to all that You have for me”. this has been a theme for me with this second adoption.  i want to walk through it with open hands.  open to all God has for me.  open to all He has for my family. part of that is being willing to consider more than one child.  part of that is being open to any age under…